ORANGENESS!

2011-03-31T15:15:00.002+08:00

Hey babe! You are at my blog now! I updated this post just specially for youuuu! so I am sorry if the journey was really short and not that enjoyable! cos i took really really long to record that stupid thing cos my mic was shitty. So I guess that after all this that I have done you wouldn't need to guess how much I love you right? hahahaha. I like this picture alot! I will miss you when I am in aussie land babe!

Hope you have fun in taiwan and hongkong! Just know that wherever I am, I'm missing you.

P.S I Love You.

2009-09-10T20:54:00.001+08:00

goodbye blogger.
http://sowiieee.livejournal.com

2009-08-27T02:20:00.000+08:00

so I haven't updated in like eons I mean seriously like eons.

Lots of things has happened. Actually I'm kinda thankful overall that we get to change class like after every sem although it is sad to know but I just can't imagine what it would be like if I didn't get to know so MANY new people around me. This feeling is really shiok cos like school now like my second home kind of thing.

SSM is over like damn long ago, can still feel it's ripple effect of how like educated I am during like meal times of how all the plates must be set, how to hold stuff, proper verbiage lots of shit.

HAHA so now I am currently studying for my last paper which is eh TTO, travel and tour operations. Really boring subject but then again holidays are almost here! Tomorrow buffet man smexy eatting ttm.

Keef right now is talking to me on skype along with Kelvin and he was the one who like motivated me to post so here I am!

Off I go to study once again! :D

2009-07-03T01:27:00.002+08:00

Didn't go school today. Kena influenced by Abby hahaha. And I was supposed to have U-art tutorial but there was like sign clearly stating there would be no class. Haiz the reliability of signs.

So yeah met AGAIL for lunch hahaha. We went heartland the hawker centre there to eat their ownage chicken rice. Where we were like gossiping about people (yes I do gossip man it's bad yeah I know). I saw the SOON LEE at macs. HAHA i was like gonna call him out loud but then abs stopped me hahaha cos she scared malu :X

Abs also told me something with a dream. Something very very interesting (:

Sent my sis off to Aussie land. I'm missing her already. Please november come soon.

Where were you when everything was falling apart.

2009-06-16T13:42:00.002+08:00

hey. so I came back from BBQ last night quite tired. I don't know why but I was haha.

The BBQ last night was actually supposed to be 04 & 05 only but I went cos some of them invited me so i tagged along. With my stupid wisdom teeth I could only like drink stuff couldn't eat ):

Met with arthur at toa payoh first before heading to parkway parade. At there we took like 10 mins to find a toilet HAHA. poor signs man. Then met up with Arthur's friends before going to east coast.

I swear the pit was miles away. like it's at area F. WTH?! I bet you guys don't even know where's that. We walked from area C I think. Like walking forever. Royston told me near the water ski cable area there. We walked past that, jumbo, hawker centre, bedok jetty THEN REACH. I wasn't even aware that area had BBQ pits.

Played cards, couldn't eat potato chips, constantly getting flashed by cameras. I must say the only thing good about that place is the epic wind. SUPER DUPER strong. We had a common topic to talk about though :D shan't say who la very bad.

Good thing I had serangoon people so we cabbed back. I think I reached home at 12 on the dot. That marks my monday.

I wish you were here with me tonight. right now. this very moment.

2009-06-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

Yes I'm here to revive my blog!

So here are some updates:
1. Holidays are here! Boo cos projects are always in the way :/
2. My wisdom teeth are really aching. Everytime I chew it's damn pain. EXCRUCIATING.
3. Found a new group of friends. The gamer guys hahaha we just had CHOMP CHOMP in lieu of zh's bday!
4. I'm very worried for my role as a captain when I have SSM again ): I must really go and find out how to be an epic captain :D

Life's been good but definitely could be better. Been going out with people just to build relationships and have a chatter here and there. Speaking of which tomorrow I've got project meeting then after that going for some BBQ at ECP. I recon tomorrow night would be a long one :X

MY ART PIECE! AHHHHH. lots of work to do man. I don't really know how to get started. God please help me get through this hectic schedule which you've helped me through so many times. I trust in your plan for me and I thank you for your mercy.

It's wrecking my heart.

2009-05-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

so this place is rather dead. Haha.
Well SSM I was rather hoping that I would not get Toptable and I got it. Happy Birthday to me.
I am a steward. Sexy washing of plates mannnnn!

The most shiok feeling this whole sem I would believe is that when you just finish SSM and you're in the locker rooms to me. I feel like a whole load of my shoulders (:
And I only begin to worry about SSM around sat night hahahaha.

My Class is alright generally. Definitely a good mix of people. The quiet and the noisy. The geeks like me and cool people. Although I haven't really talked to EVERY single person in my class but I believe they are cool in their own way (:

Cos I believe that you have that power to delude me.

2009-05-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

Definitely. How would I get through this sem knowing that this picture would never have the same initial feeling.

Monday is a free day for me yay (:
Tuesday is SSM day. Which makes my life more interesting by waking up at 545am. HEH.

The feeling now is just weird. Walking around BUS school during breaks or intervals and seeing Dozen doesn't have that feeling anymore. How could 1 year of memories just be so quickly forgotten. There would not be a time so soon where we 12 all meet together at one place.

On the other hand, my group mates are quite funny. I swear Germaine is like some older sister to me. Derick is the quiet one but not he knows people. Felicia is like Trish to me. haha. Life's good. But definitely can be better (:

Holding on to yesterday.

2009-04-22T13:39:00.002+08:00

SSM was quite enjoyable only for the 2nd half. 1st half was horrible.
I need to start training my left bicep and my leg muscles man. Today was a sign that I was terribly unfit man hahahaha.

My shoulders and left arm are aching right now. Thank God for no school today as it's the first week of school. No need to attend tutorials (: Not to mention my legs ):

Good luck to those who haven't had their 1st lesson of SSM (:

This is our town. OUR town.

2009-04-19T17:48:00.003+08:00

I miss Keith's constantly looking for mirrors to check out his hair.
I miss Zhihong's irritating but funny rants about anything.
I miss Shawn for being the most focused during projects.
I miss Junshen's harping about how he wants a Macbook.
I miss GuiYao's funny jokes about people and their behaviour.
I miss Claire's cynical laughter.
I miss Regina and how I suan her about eurasian power.
I miss Eilis for being exactly just who she is.
I miss Rita's shocked face when she discovers hidden stuff.
I miss Jessica's retarded poses during lectures.
I miss Anadee's very always-in-a-daze faces.

2H03. I am a reject of tomorrow.

2009-04-14T22:26:00.003+08:00

I just took an injection. Life's fun with pain in it (:

okay poly is starting next week. And just looking at the modules, I am damn damn damn scared of the expectations of me by my lecturers.

My fear of needles is cos of bad experience i guess.
Another random thing is that i just took a quiz about dota and it said I was a noob. Nice, that really goes to show that I need more practice ):

Sister's bday on friday. Still trying to get the present but can't find it anywhere!

If you know you fear me.

2009-03-25T19:44:00.002+08:00

I am feeling down. I am feeling useless.

I'm slowly being consumed by the person within me. And the most irritating truth is that I can't do anything about it. I can't do anything. So scared that a day will come where clement will disappear and 1 new person emerges. Frustrating thought. The helplessness is killing me. I being torn, ripped apart into two. I don't know the answers.

I need the answers. God I need you to give me the answers. I really don't know anything about it. Empty shell that's what I am right now. Void of feeling love, compassion, concern & pain.

I want to be human again. I want to feel alive. Lately I've been losing my passion in everything around me.

Who is me?

2009-03-18T18:55:00.002+08:00

I feel so dead right now. Just like my bloggggg.
Bought a new mouse and mic (: definitely beneficial to those who skype with me hahahaha.

March holidays for the JC/Sec/Pri sch peeps. Have fun man!
I wish sometimes God could give us special pockets of time to spend time with people we cherish the most but we don't say it. Ohwellllll. Who doesn't think time is enough? (:

Tomorrow is a special day (:
VERY VERY nice day to go out heh. hahahaha.

The feeling of sitting together in tutorials and lectures (if we still go) will not be there next sem. The closeness between us would drift further than a kite on a clear blue sky. HAHAHA I am damn random. Miss dozens <3

I am in desperate need of shopping manzzzz. But got no moneeyyyyyy. Nevermind me and my mum are entering this monopoly competition in sg! HAHA we were so bored so we decided just to enter for the fun of it. IF we win, 10k is a nice fat cheque (:

P.S
Joanna you still owe me a hearts game.
Keith I haven't seen your new phone. haha at least no more loudspeaker.

HAHAHAHAHA. That's a really good joke.

2009-03-12T02:13:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Chalet!

Tons of fun, laughter, injury for me. I don't want to talk about Chalet cos I just got my results!
hahaha of course I suspected my GPA would drop. So last sem was like 3.3. now its 3.0! ahhhh! ):

it's not that I didn't expect it. It's just that since its already out, I shall accept it and like get ready to be scolded by my parents D:

Gonna cut my hair in a few hours time (: Super short standard. SSS.

Life is gonna get really really sucky.

2009-03-09T02:45:00.003+08:00

Class Chalet :D 1H09!

9th-11th March 2009.

Don't miss me that much kay (:

I'm in love with my old sins.

2009-03-03T00:32:00.002+08:00

Kay last few days was alot of dota & WoW changing servers hahaha.

Life has been good. Well relatively (:
Now on skype with Zh. Playing dota again. ZH really craving for dota. I was Wow-ing.

When my mom asked me what do I see myself doing in 5 years. I really don't know. And 1 more thing is that I really do not want to know. I want my life to be an adventure (:

Have you ever had high expectations for something but got really disappointed in the end? Yeah. It happens. Shit happens. Life is full of suprises.

Changing class. And therefore I am feeling really sad. In the shower today, I was set in my mind that I would hug each and every other 11 of the dozen. And as I hug them, I would reminisce about my memories with them. And put them in my virtual canister.

I really want to be with you. But I can't. Not now.

2009-02-25T22:48:00.002+08:00

After exams finally! YAY! I feel so happy right now. Year 1 is over! Really really fast manzzzz.
My sister is finishing poly life in officially a few more hours. Congrats jie.

On another note! Most of the dozen went to Alistair's house today! HAHA. I had a first hand experience playing rockband :D
It was good. Really good.

It was easy to see that you were just playing me.

2009-02-21T17:31:00.001+08:00

I miss my dad. Right now he is on his way back from US. Freaking 18 hours. Insanity.

I am such a study slave.

You can sit beside me when the world falls down.

2009-02-17T16:55:00.003+08:00

This week is study and quite frankly I haven't even started opening my books. Econs is the first paper on friday. I haven't also been playing on my laptop.

What have I been doing? I've been watching this Korean drama called Ju-Mong! Freaking exciting. I can't stop. But too bad there are like 81 episodes and each episode is like 1 hour. Last night I stayed up to watch somemore :X

I think I should start tonight yay (:

You've no idea how you captivated me.

2009-02-09T02:43:00.001+08:00

Last week of school is here - YAY.

Am currently reading about DID (Dissociative identity disorder) hahaha. You guys think I'm so free hor. Go read. Quite interesting (:

Happy thoughts are contagious! I feel like abandoning my current life and go to an island to have fun (:

I will never end up like him.

2009-02-08T01:22:00.004+08:00

Something really interesting happened on my way back home from school on board bus 80. Wouldn't tell you guys the story (only Keith knows) as if I do, you guys are gonna ask me really difficult questions. So yeah I would just skip that part.

It is astonishing to know what sec3 boys are like nowadays.

Random Fact about me.
I hate it when people tell me that I do certain things due to peer pressure. I do not let my peers influence me. I hate it.

Today's socio test was relatively easy. Hope I can get enough to pull up my marks (:

My whole blogging world is disappearing. That's rather sad.

I read up about the background & history of Pirates of The Carribean and was very intrigued by the whole plot! I didn't know how the characters were linked.

Valentines Day coming soon. Don't have a date. Looks like i won't have a date ): hahahaha. It's been the same for like tons of years. I shall go date Keith (:
Can't wait for 23Feb. It's the day that year 1 is OVERRR! WHOOOTS.

The stars are holding you tonight.

2009-02-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

Blogging time baby.
Yay thankgoodness school is coming to a close. This sem is really like hectic. Staying up till like 5+ for almost everyday to do projects and waking up at 7 is really really exhausting.

J2s wanna go kayaking on sat. I like abit against. Cos like I think this kind of crazy sport must have mood. No mood ah I tell you kayak and capsize then you know. HAHA.

Mum bought me a new laptop case! I so happy (: And it costs 40 bucks! THANKYOU MUMZ.

Why can't we seem to keep it together.

2009-02-03T00:46:00.003+08:00

When we first met as a class(:

One of GL's very first project meetings.

Old times <3

Friends are the essence of school.

Guys can be quite vain sometimes (:

Me & Keith doing an advert for seasons.

Well it is kinda a regular thing when all 6 of us are in the lift alone (:

DANG.

Long time ago when Clement had short hair, Keith had a different parting & anadee had braces.

We are being torn apart ):

No comments.

How would I ever get through next sem knowing that this picture will never have the same feeling initially.

fall, crawl.

2009-02-01T19:01:00.002+08:00

hahaha so I've neglected blogging abit :X

Felt really good/relieved after going to church today. No idea why hmmmm. Haha so after church I did some studying at Matt's house. CS2 is freaking scary. The notes so thick but actually the content is all fake one hahaha. Did studying for about 1 hour+ then dozed off for like 2 hours.

The bed was dang comfortable! Shiok sia i tell you. Then after that when I woke up saw Nadal vs Federer. James & Matt were constantly laughing at both of them.

No mood to blog alr ):
Tata. Don't die cos. cos.... (insert emo text here).

You broke my heart. I'll NEVER forget that. NEVER.

2009-01-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

It's disgusting to know that you act this way and still call yourself a Christian.

2009-01-18T23:48:00.002+08:00

LIKE VINES WE INTERTWINE.
KEITH AHAHAHAHA. I finally update *colen capital D.*

Was wondering when will I get the chance to buy mu CNY clothes, looks like it's gonna be delayed until after CNY. so queer.

10 random things on this week:

1. Downloaded new theme for mozilla (ORANGE BLACK)
2. Got Photoshop from Keith.
3. First time i got excited during a BCS lesson.
4. Found my goal list when I was p6.
5. Finally started to exercise.
6. Still deciding on getting my haircut.
7. Dad went to JAPAN.
8. Discovered that there is a melted sweet fruitella in my drawer but lazy to clear.
9. Pledged to give God 600 bucks this year.
10. I attended lecture this week!

You've taken it too far again.

2009-01-15T00:53:00.002+08:00

I like this picture especially much cos it makes me feel grown up. HAHAHA.

I feel so old. eighteen zomg. Legal *wiggle.

For me, I don't think I'll have a very enjoyable CNY this year due to all the stinking deadlines and exams & presentations. HAHAHAHAHA. I think i am siao already.

Do you ever feel out of place?

2009-01-11T02:17:00.004+08:00

I found this extremely amusing.

HAHA. My parents :D

Dad!

COOL.

Cleopas, Dad & Me.

Ice Ball!

Me & Brother.

At Dreamworld hahaha.

In this picture i think my hands look awkward.

Me & Mum.

Family Pic!

You can't blame me. It was freaking cold.

THE THREE OF US.

(: no comments.

That's just the way it is.

2009-01-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

YAY! i shall update again. hahaha sorry anadee for calling you a bitch :X
but i must say you were one during that LT show HAHAHA. i think the tim banks guy damn funny.

TP open house was kinda terrifying. Cos at like every school in TP, they cheer you like while you're coming in. SO freaking scary. Even I also scared.

Chinese New Year is approaching and I've yet to do shopping >.>
Looking for shopping buddies (: be it guy or girl I don't mind ahaha.

I don't want to live such a life.
I don't want to be who I was last year.
I don't want to look back in anger.
I don't want to regret my decisions.

I want to lead a new life.
I want to tell myself that everything's gonna be alright even when it's not.

2008-12-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

I AM BACK FROM AUSTRALIA!

I must say that the GPS shit definitely got me frustrated. Dreamworld was awesome! hahaha. although I didn't sit the 39-storey drop ride, I must say that day in Dreamworld was good. Very good (:

I guessed I've delayed this post for like super long. Sorry to all you faithful readers of my blog (: I have quite happy then at least some people visit my blog haha.

Yes claire I am finally not leaving the airport in45 mins (:

Okay school has started. All fun is disappearing. Ohwell. Happy New Year anyway :X

I can still rmb the time when the first time my whole class met. I was so quiet. So was like keith & guiyao. Last time I called him peter john haha. Zhihong is forever as chatty as can be. Eilis actually bluffed me to being from another class. Claire looked like an ah lian to me. I thought Regina was a Malay. Rita was kinda like talkative ahlian to me. Shawn look like a totally normal guy to me. Junshen I thought was a nerd. Anadee I thought was a bimbo. Jessica didn't really give me an impression haha.

Look how much my impression of them has changed :D

Old is Gold.

2008-12-19T19:57:00.001+08:00

Okay i'm leaving for the airport in like 45mins.

Bye guys (: By the time I get back it would be Christmas itself alr. Happy Christmas ALL!

Don't miss me alright.

You look so good with me.

2008-12-18T17:48:00.002+08:00

to all 1h09 if you happen to get to my blog. Please do your BCS excel & econs project ):

Eilis yeah I miss you. Not only you. But the rest of the dozen. Keith I can't wait to see your hair on the first day of school haha.

I really don't know what to say.

2008-12-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

NO MATTER WHAT 2008 :D

well frankly, I'll have to say that the highlight of the camp was the sermons which were really impactful. The camp was rather more tiring than fun sorry camp comm :X

God touched my heart during the camp. I needed to change as I seriously don't think right now my life is reflecting His beauty. Really hope I can change for the better (:
He did miracles during the camp also! HAHA. My ezlink card suddenly had 20 bucks in it and I do not have JIRO ._.

Seriously, I felt free from the bondage that I was in. Just screwing up my life this year. And the joy that derived from this freedom was just spectacular (:
My God is the one who provides. DEFINITELY.

Okay right now I need to do school work before I leave for Aussie trip to GoldCoast! WHOOOTS. Econs group proj, socio proj, BCS excel proj. ohmy. I'll have to do this before I go off.

Really thinking of cutting my hair again as it is STARTING to grow out of shape ): Hoping that soon scientists would invent some kind of lotion to prevent hair from growing for a specified time period. Wouldn't that be awesome for the guys? Can totally style the same as 3 months ago haha.

There is a faith proved more worth than gold.

2008-12-08T02:10:00.002+08:00

Vanessa our birthday girl!

Money makes me go round (:

The gang!

So there you have it. After church we went to cine and ate suki sushi!
we ate like crazy. hahaha like people who haven't eaten in like 5 days.

When we were trying to settle the bill was chaotic cos alot of us no money ):
hahahahahahahahaha.

ECONS & OB. GO TO HELL!

I've got the whole life baby.

2008-12-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hooray! Camp is next week (:

I think I've said before that this year passed really quickly leh! These few days have been full of chicken essence, 3am, alarm clocks & fatigue. Sometimes I really can collaspe, but with the faces of my friends, I find it hard to do so (:

If I really die tomorrow, I want to say that you guys (Anadee, Regina, Eilis, Jessica, Claire, Rita, Zhihong, Shawn, Keith, GuiYao, Junshen) really made my last year of my life the most memorable and I thank you for that :D

Gosh I can't believe we're splitting up next sem ):

Enough about school work already! HAHA. I need to do some shopping manzz. Have been koping bags from my siblings to use ._.

Sometimes I wish I could save you.

2008-11-30T21:34:00.003+08:00

hello again world. Tomorrow Monday. HAIZ. I am feeling the blues already ):

Just played soccer. Dead tired. Dinner was really good though (:
(1 reason to smile for tomorrow :D)

Where's my lovely holidays!

I've come to realise that you know that when sometimes you feel like shit, there's ALWAYS someone out there worse than you. So it's better not to complain (:

I feel like this year passed really too quickly. Like i felt like yesterday i was taking my O'levels. And I really thank God that he answered my prayer before i entered poly. I was hoping for good friends since I never really had this chance in Stgabs. Thank Goodness I have my 11 other crazy whackos :D

My mind has been going through some mental turmoil recently. And it seriously is no one's fault cos its just the worries of life.

WHOOOOOOOTS.
Today church showed a life/testimony of Neville Tan. If you guys don't know who he is, he is this super hardcore gangster that screwed up his youth by going to jail lots of times but there was once in jail that he read a gospel of luke. Initially he didn't believe, but slowly with the help of his memory and burning desire to answer life's question, he changed his life completely.

I know that sometimes that when you've been emotionally scarred, you feel as if there is no God in this whole. And even if he does exist, why would he be letting you go through so much suffering. I myself am struggling with it most of time, but I guess it all boils down to perspective.

You feel like there was no one for you before, and you wish you could cry out your worries & sorrows to someone but that "someone" never even existed. Since you've been alone most of your time, you feel better that way now. It really can be heart-breaking when you know that no one has ever shed tears of concern for you or be that "someone".

Your past memory has taught you only one thing. Which is to rely on yourself, cos in this world life is unfair. And when times get tough, your so-called friends abandon you to struggle by yourself. Pride & Independence has built up in your life for so long.

But really, what can you lose by just believing once? There really is not much harm. Why not try (:

Why can't you see that life is really not that bad afterall.

2008-11-25T22:51:00.001+08:00

BCS DOWN (:

TONS MORE TO GO ):

NOT MUCH TIME TO DO SO.

2008-11-24T02:17:00.002+08:00

10 - 9

Nice way to use your monday heh.

Nobody was there when I needed help.
Nobody was there to wash my wounds and make me feel better.
Nobody was there to comfort me and tell me it's gonna be alright.

Slowly I became that nobody
Cos there was I figured that I could only count on myself
As I am now, I toss my memories aside
Just to find my hands bruised

Another one emerged and claim to be my friend
You come just around the bend
Feeling so down and drained,

2008-11-22T02:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Auntie (:

Although it's quite late but the thought counts :D

Tomorrow i hope will be a sunny day. then at least can tan abit (:
I woke up at 645 this morning. No alarm clock. Really wanted to go and run but couldn't find my shoes ):

Before it gets too late.

2008-11-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

This sem's really screwed up.

BCS - like WTH is it talking about.
CS2 - my teacher freaking kp non stop.
GEOG travel - 100% virtual, means all online.
OB - what the heck another POM-like.

Econs is the only thing that can save me (:

Tomorrow i have a bloody test. And you know what? I am gonna spot (: YAY!
Reminds me of those weekly SS tests.

I miss dad really bad. On a sidenote: I miss you really bad too. I need you back in order to get my life back to track.

You don't know how much you screwed it up.

2008-11-14T00:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

17th years old. Hmm not too bad. 1 year further from birth (:

Random happenings throughout the week:
1. I dropped my laptop.
2. Ate meatballs at IKEA.
3. My bag is in desperate shap.
4. I tripped and fell into a dirt pit
5. Spent 20 bucks on tibits in the bookshop.

Ogenki desu ka? (:

2008-11-12T23:00:00.003+08:00

it's 2 days away and I still have to do project on that day. Haiz. Well look on the bright side. Wait let me find it first. Guess that maybe birthdays are just another day (:

Granny has been here for 2 days. Really miss her like mad. Glad she's back. Even when she's nagging at me.

On a sidenote, happy freedom to those O'levelers. I know what it feels like (:
Sometimes you feel like you've got nothing to do HAHAHAHAHA.

What did I get back in return? Heartbreak.

2008-11-10T01:34:00.002+08:00

hahaha so this week was rather good cos I didn't need to go to school on friday :D

tomorrow is the start of another week awwww. Happy Birthday Keith (:
And by the end of next week, comes my 17th birthday. I feel so old :X

Brother has started playing dota and warcraft. I think it's my fault. I shouldn't have brought him along to lan sessions and let him stare at me while playing dota. I know from experience that dota can kill you. Its addiction causes you to do undesirable things. Like play it while lying to your mum that you were going to a friend's house to study. Or secretly stealing money from the drawer to go play lan. It's really not good. And now what hurts me the most is that my brother is following in my footsteps. No matter what I do, he just won't stop. He's just gonna throw away his time to play it. It's breaking my heart.

This is no time to lose my courage.

2008-11-06T23:19:00.002+08:00

No it's that you think it is. My other finger got cut off.

Anadee snapped this :X

Don't know what's this.

Funny actions HAHAHAHA.

So today I finished a bowl of bak chor mee before eilis finished eating half of her hot dog bun!
I OWN AND PWNS :D

I own the sky and fly.

2008-11-05T21:39:00.002+08:00

Quantum of Solace. Let's just say you've got to watch the first one to understand it.

Tomorrow until 6 sianzzzz. I need to buy new bag liao. My bag is tearing especially the straps. Must be the heavy weight. JIAYOU INK BAG! :D

These few days have been clear of bad. Just hope I can survive 1 week without him. You know I was just thinking. There is none on earth who totally know me. Even my family. Let's just say that's safe (: Other side of me is not nice to see haha.

My room needs some major cleanning up. It's darn messy.

Girls = complicated life.
No Girls = PEACE! :D

Sorry but the plaster is wearing thin. AGAIN.

2008-11-03T01:00:00.002+08:00

HAHA another post since I feel like it.

You know i seriously think that getting into a relationship like right now is being really really selfish as you not only hurt the other party but yourself. And getting into one right now is just for fun. No one thinks of it as that far fetched to be marriage.

But....

I need something that can take over girls in life. HMMMMM. Like my very own dog (:

2008-11-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

BCS assignment was bloody last minute haha. But luckily I managed to submit on time (:

Why the heck is there underwear on my table >.>
Okay i shouldn't be blogging about this :X

CS2 this sem is shit. I mean like what the ____ do they do peer teaching. CS1 was so much more clear and easy to understand.

Claire was so damn inspired by my post! HAHAHA THAT'S NEW YAY!

Helping Kris do the camp drama is tough. I have to be the main lead ):
It's been a while since I've acted. hmmm the last one would be last year december haha.

We'll walk down that summer lane with cherry blosoms in our hands.

2008-11-01T12:26:00.003+08:00

Since I've got time, and it's a Saturday early afternoon :D

Cleo went for NCC camp this morning, that means he wouldn't be coming backkkkkk.
Going for drama later. See you.

Was it something I said, or something I never did.

2008-10-31T00:50:00.002+08:00

So yeah dating back to monday which was deepavali, I actually watched HS3 with James. I couldn't believe my ears that he actually bought a ticket for me sia. HE BUY TICKET FOR ME! In my mind I was like "You over the phone, whatever you did to james is not funny." HAHAHA.

HS3 wasn't as fantastic as I thought. Like 75% of the movie is dancing and singing. Shouldn't they just convert it into a concert. Movie what crap. Vanessa Hudgens can't act for shittttt. But she's hot though (:

Headed to Manhatten Fish Market. Had a sumptuous seafood platter which cost a bomb. My money ): Somemore after that I wasn't really like 100% full so....

James stayed over at my house on monday night. The night which I started to play dota again (:
I wouldn't really say dota is bad but it's the addiction is bad. Like even facebook can be bad. Basically I felt God telling me that I should do what I should do about my addiction to dota. So being the very self-controlling boy i am, I gave myself 1 month time-out. In fact, right now I feel that I can survive without dota for like 1 week. Unlike last time, it was an everyday thing. If not will PMS. God is the bombbbbbb.

School has been retarded. Like as of right NOW, I am beginning to enjoy socio 1% more cos I made like 2 friends :D YAY. Last week was just me and me and me and me and that strange 21 china guy.

I teared up once again as I was watching Bridge to Terabithia. That show never ceases to amaze (: And somemore I find it so easy to relate to. TEEHEE.

Looking back at my secondary school years, I now realise how immature I was when i said that there shouldn't be homework. Really. Cos Education revolves around application. Without app, teach for ______. So you guys out there, don't complain when there is too much homework. Unless you're born naturally smart, I doubt you can score As without doing homework.

Shit happens yes? Definitely. Of course none of us want shit to happen. But hey, it's part and parcel of life. Accept it. What can you do? You stand tall and be brave. You tell yourself that nothing can throw me down unless God himself. That's what I tell myself (:

Times are tough. Swallow that fear and stand tall. For that a man who can't even stand for himself, how can he expect others to stand beside him.

2008-10-25T01:55:00.004+08:00

yay the week has ended HOORAY! first week of school already have mini-project ):

Jap class was really cool. My Jap teacher's name is called shigeta-san haha. She damn cute in a mannerism way. She also very smiley. Had fun during Jap tutorial (:

Socio class was like me in st.gabs again. So lonely as I didn't know anyone. Moreover, I had this 21 year old china dude next to me who isn't very friendly >.>

Well I've a feeling I'm really gonna dread socio but ohwell God brings me through whooots.

Right now I am looking at this disgusting swollen enlarged mosquito bite near my wrist. Very itchy ohmygoodness. Then i got somemore on my hands and legs. The mosquito net must be having piercings.

Tomorrow got TM! And After tomorrow would be church! Which I am expected to go for KJ training. I am still contemplating though haha (:

Don't you find the simplest questions the hardest to answer?

2008-10-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

so yah back to school today! The timetable is freaking screwed up. And the time taken to correct my modules is just ridiculous. Barely had time to eat ):

Taking Jap & Socio :D

And during BCS lecture today i saw MANY MANY people in there I've never seen before o.o
weird haha.

Saw EC today also. She looked as pretty as ever (: prettier than even before if I must say haha. I'm just a guy who likes to look at nice things so if I stare you for a long time...

(After this post jessica is confirm gonna kp me say why i stare at her for so long. HAHAHAHA. I can read minds MAN!)

cos I miss you.

2008-10-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

So today I visited Edwin's mum. She looks very happy, that's good (:

After visiting at the hospital, my family went to IKEA to eat whoooots.
I ate 15 meatballs, 4 gigantic potato wedges, half a bowl of rice, 4 chicken wings & a hot dog bun.

WHY CAN'T I GAIN WEIGHT! )))))):

The O'levels should have started. All the best to those taking (:
I remember last year at this time I was still playing around :X

My school timetable is out! And I have a retarded 4 hour break ._.
last sem was a 5 hour break now 4 hour break. And on the day which I have this ridiculous break i end at 6 wa laoooooo.

You ate my heart out.

2008-10-14T21:12:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Junshen's house with the gang (:

Had loads of fun hahaha. like CAMWHORING, rolling in bed with people :X, playing mahjong, having pillow fights, nerds! Jessica robbed me of my manhood D:
AND I HAVE A VIDEO TO PROOF THAT xD

Retardly Eilis arrived at 12+ and since we were too tired to go out so we ordered Macs! hahaha. It took like forever to come cha'know, we were all getting worried. And it finally did I bathed just before eating (:

Mahjong session :D
Keith and Claire have some special bond for the same cards mannnnn.
And I think if we played money, I would have gotten like $10 ):

GAMBLING AIN'T GOOD. NO NO.

Failed attempts to sleep resulted in occasional pillow fights or snatching of blankets or pillows.
By the time I slept it was like 8+ hahaha.

Then hor the girls come ka chiao me keith and guiyao. We sleeping hor they come tickle us ):
we also didn't disturb them, WHERE IS THE LOVE? ):

I lost my $50 note hahaha. Ended up in Zhihong's wallet. All that is well ends well yay.

It's a shame that it had to be this way.

2008-10-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

For all you November babies out there (:

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keepsecrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

For those people who really know me you should know which are the ones which describe me, the one who don't, and the ones which I don't know.

Goodnight Goodnight.

2008-10-08T10:27:00.002+08:00

YAY got new blogskin! I think it's kinda smexy hahahaha.

I am so freaking proud of myself. You know why? I liked figured how to insert the archives tab and I succeeded! For all you HMTL pros out there, you might think it's some small thing but I am a total HTML idiot! (:

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Fairytales stay as fairytales cos the ending is always happy.

2008-10-06T12:50:00.002+08:00

CONVERSE WAREHOUSE SALE! WHEEE!

so yeah i was there on sat with gab and james. The place is damn damn damn hot. The fans are like non-exsistant. Was walking around the place, gab bought 2 shoes 1 kappa 1 everlast. James bought some kappa shoe also. I bought an everlast shoe for my brother. See I'm such a nice person :D

cos I felt that i have enough shoes, and I've like never ever gave him a birthday present before. So guilt had a part to play (: it's a good thing it fits him perfectly. Anyway I felt that i have enough shoes so yah.

RUNFORHOPE 08!

hahahaha. Dee I want photos! (:
It was a fun event. Especially my half-eaten banana with muffin flakes on it. YUCK.
Marshalling is fun. But when the runners ask me the distance then I am like "oh shit."

Countdown to school : 14 days :D

Just died in your arms tonight.

2008-10-03T21:50:00.002+08:00

Had a fun week. I must say.

Made a trip to dentist today. He's my dad's old friend, but somehow he didn't look so old. He helped me to drill drill drill. Dentists can be really scary sometimes (:

Met Amiel, James, Bryan, Jeremy & his friends for i-am-bored session. Cool bunch of friends i must say. Would wanna meet them again. Goodspeed lan shops suck. I got no spacebar button for both dota and cs. OHMYGOODNESS.

Gabriel's feeling kinda down. cheer up bro (:
he asked me whether i wanted to go for the converse warehouse sale tomorrow. Hmmmm. What should I buy there. Maybe just look and see (:

My dad's back from India and he bought this >$70 shawl for my sister. I don't understand how can a long wrap of navy blue wool can cost so much!

Saw a glimpse of the moon on your face.

2008-09-30T23:19:00.002+08:00

heh. This place is really dead! ohno.

Life's been boring. Don't ask me why I wouldn't want to get a job. Let's just say I have the rest of my life to work and wouldn't want to start so early. Temasek Poly. I wanna go there like right now with my friends to attend lectures and tutorials and have daily random (dirty?) convos.

Dota dota dota. so yeah these 3 words describe how I spend my afternoons and nights.
Not say I am damn pro but it's just practice makes perfect. In dota there's no thing as perfect so yah.

Pong's coming over again tomorrow. And I've just directed Email how to come to my house.
Tomorrow shall be a fun day. So it awaits.

To Anadee, Eilis, Claire, Jessica, Regina, Rita, Keith, Junshen, Zhihong, Guiyao, Shawn
I miss you guys dearly (:

2008-09-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

went with amiel today at ps.
was eating our lives away at carls! haha I was ultra full.

then we decided to watch a movie.
Guess what. We watched Bangkok Dangerous. you know that show where nicholas cage stars in it?

Me and amiel both concluded that the producers could not think of a proper ending and ran out of time. So they just left it as it is. If you've watched it, you would agree wouldn't you!

WHOOOOTS. F1 is coming.
I can forsee like some crash and something cool like that!

So what if the IR does not work out after a decade?
Hmm I want to have backup plans just in case. Still giving it deep thought though.

Do you remember what you did to me?

2008-09-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

retarded post there by amiel >.>

so the stinking jc peeps are having their damn promos now. God Bless (:
Whereas there is only me James and Amiel. Which is getting abit boring after seeing these 2 faces again and again. WHERE'S ThE PARTy!

Life has been mono. So has been my attempts to relive the harmonica talent hidden in me ):

go away dammit.

hello. this is your captian speaking.

2008-09-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

HOLY CRAP? this isn't my blog. ah well.
just here to say. AMIEL ROCKS
AMIEL ROCKS. AMIEL ROCKS.

AMIEL AMIEL AMIEL AMIEL AMIEL AMIEL rocks.

-amiel

p.s.
clement. i bet you dunno who posted this :P

2008-09-17T03:42:00.002+08:00

Since I am incredibly bored (:

The person who tagged: Auntie

2) Your relationship with him/her is: LOL. hmmm not sure (:

3) Your five impressions of him/her:
1. high at weird hours. 2. has a HDB club. 3. crazy. 4. whiney. 5. funny.

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
cooking me chicken wings when I was sleeping in the chalet :D

5) The most memorable thing he/she said to you:
UNCLE!

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
GO MARKET AND BUY MEAT AND FISH! HAHAHAHA.

7) If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
Be more complacent to become more like an AUNTIE.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
choke her with HDBS!

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
An obession in HDBS.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Buy her lots of pokka green tea and hot dog buns :D

11) Your overall impression of him/her is:
SHE IS FREAKING HIGH!

12) How you think people around you will feel about you:
eh. I don't really care cos I don't live my life on how people feel about me (:

13) The characters you love of yourself are:
HEH? sorry teacher i don't know how to answer this question.

14) On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
I tend to say things without thinking.
I turn ugly unknowingly.

15) The most ideal person you want to be is:
Just me. Cos there is no one else like me (:

16) For people who care and like you, say something to them:
Be thankful that you live to see the next cos life is unpredictable.

17) Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1. Keith
2. Eilis
3. Jessica
4. Gui Yao
5. Shawny
6. Anadee
7. Amiel
8. Claire
9. Rita
10. Junshen

18) Who is #6 having relationship with?
HAHA you wouldn't need to know.

19) Is #9 a male of female?
A mix lah. Cos sometimes she can be really man hahahaha.

20) If #7 and #10 are together, will it be good?
ERM HELL NO. lols. they don't even know each other for goodness sake.

21) What is #2 studying about?
How to be _____.

22) When has the last time you had a chat with #3?
Hahaha like last week when we were at the chalet.

23) What kind of music band does #8 like?
I nort really sure. But I know she is trying to flaunt her new 120GB ipod.

24) Does #1 have any siblings?
YUP. His older sister and brother.

25) Will you woo #3?
HAHAHAHAHA. hmmmm who knows? she is really really crazy though(:

26) How about #7?
hahaha he would crush me in bed :X

27) Is #4 Single?
I guess so. Unless he has some other relation that I do not know of ):

28)What is the surname of #5?
Potassium Hydroxide!

29) What is the hobby of #4?
Playing com? MSN? I'm not sure.

30) Do #5 and #9 get along well?
Yep. HAHAHA. no other comments.

31) Where is #2 studying at?
TP. BUSINESS BLOCK. 1H09. YAY!

32) Talk something casually about #1
He likes to strum on his guitar.

33) Have you tried developing feelings for #8?
HAHAHAHA. NOOOOOOOO.

34) Where does #9 live at?
FREAKING WOOD-LANDS.

35) What color does #3 like?
hahaha all the colours of the rainbow.

36) Are #5 and #1 best friends?
I'm not so sure about that. But the friends part is *nodds.

37) Does #1 have any pets?
Don't know leh. I thought he had a dog before.

38) Is #7 the sexiest person in the world?
HAHA definitely! that is if I was not in this world (:

2008-09-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

TODAY I WENT TO THE DENTIST!
actually deep inside I'm scared of going to the dentist :X

Supposedly go for cleaning but the dentist helped me do a filling for a decay and said I have to come back for another appointment before school starts as he has to fill another decay. Cos my gum was bleeding uber alot, that's why he couldn't do it.

The drilling part is pain. Actually hor, it's not. There's this tinge of poking sensation. WEIRD.

Amiel called me to party at his house tomorrow night. James is going too. Should I? (:

RAWR.
RAWRR.
My room is in a mess. There are coins like EVERYWHERE. in my laptop case. in my pencil case. under my mouse pad. in my clothes. in my bible OMG.

Some people just don't know when to give up.

2008-09-13T22:20:00.004+08:00

So CLASS CHALET was AWESOME! (:

we had like tons of fun playing in a kiddy play room, mahjong-ing, nerds, open hand blackjack, talking lots of rubbish at an unearthly hour.

Jessica was damn high and Eilis also after listening to some oldie on zh's ipod. They started dancing, it was freaking funny! HAHAHA. then jessica went to play dress up with toilet paper.
A cross between a woodbridge patient, superwoman, sumo wrestler and ms universe.

Just started playing WOW with keith zh and aud. HAHA damn funny.

I'm sitting on the sidelines for this one.

2008-09-07T15:22:00.002+08:00

heys! just came back from church. I now know the difference between envy and jealously now. YAY! Thanks Pastor Alvin :D

Subway-ed with the gang after a short cg meeting. James totally disappeared to don't know where. Amiel says he hasn't seen me in jeans for like 5 weeks of church. HAHAHA. Sometimes on an early sunday morning, shorts seem to attract me more than jeans :X

Now I am back home! LOL i sound retardedly happy. COS MY CLASS CHALET IS TOMORROW WHOOOOOOOTS. But I'll be missing my fav korean show on chan 173. CHILWU BYEBYE ):

Stayed over at amiel's for 2 nights over a span of 1 week. HAHA bad bad. buona vista is such a rich district. totally do not belong there mannnnnzz. Serangoon's my town (:

I'm trading my sickness, my pain for His glory.

2008-09-04T00:46:00.002+08:00

Way way way over due pictures :D

Stayover at amiel's was good. Food was awesome! yay! can't wait to go back there :X
We just like played all the maps of warcraft HAHAHAHA.

What I'm thinking right now? I can't wait for my class chalet. Cos I miss my friends that I usually hang out with ))):
LOVE you guys manzzzzz. Especially Keith and Guiyao who make me laugh so ever much.

I think I played a bit too much lappy today until my mum scolded me hahaha. Okay I admit today was too much. I sat down in my seat from 3 to about 12am with occassional breaks to the toilet and dinner. This is baddddddd ):

Since it's holidays, I should really start getting back to being fit!
Which was utterly a very long time ago :X

I plan to jog tomorrow! (: but I seriously don't think I can wake up ohno! Nevermind. God please help me wake up at 9 so that I can go jogging. AMEN.

I can't seem to get my eyes off you.

2008-08-31T23:29:00.001+08:00

he can't get close to you people cos he's afraid that when he does, he just gonna turn into a monster and ruin your heart. That's why I'm the only who understands him. He's trying to keep himself out of these kind of stuff.

He's trying hard to fight the monster within. But I think it would help if people could just shun him away. Please, he really has your interests at heart (:

Say my name so I know it's true.

2008-08-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

so I've finished holidays! Sorry lagging for like over the weekend :D

I just came back from gab's bday party. Food supply was like infinite. I am really thankful for like Sharon, Gail, Yu Jie and his family for cooking the food for us. Yes THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

We had fun LOL. especially the photo-taking part. It was so damn obvious HAHAHAHAHA.

Wanted James to stayover tonight, but ohwell.

I not confirmed staying over at amiel's also cause my parents like kinda kao pei. Say why cannot stayover another day. Holidays man. Holidays. It's a good enough reason (:

And right now I am hearing my sister ranting off something to my mum. AHHH RANDOM.

We had the chance to make it.

2008-08-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

so yeah today i had ECONS paper. I thought it was okay.

Last night ton over tp was quite fun. Claire brought a loaf of bread as if she going camping!
screaming, dropping coke, camwhoring, webcamming with eugene, playing with the dustbin. Didn't really cover much of econs but I guess i needed that :D

Don't make me change my mind.

2008-08-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

okay so yeah. hmmm coughing out blood is quite uncomfortable :X

Exams officially start tomorrow and officially end next week! I am quite ready for the F&B test tomorrow WHOOOOOTS!

My mum bought me a new harmonica! :DDDD
I think it's a diatonic. Not really sure. Gonna pick up my skills again (:

Haha actually today I was supposed to go school with Keith & Claire but was too tired so :X
Sorry claire hahahaha.

Had pizza for dinner, some hawaiian pizza and some other don't know what thing but was darn good. I am so full now. which is quite rare in my life :P

James exams finished already. I know Amiel's ones are gonna finish. And I'm the only one not done yet )))):

I am gonna wear a paperbag to tm on sat (:

So much better off without you.

2008-08-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

so y'all! Stayover at bryan's house was kinda productive, cos we ACTUALLY sat down to do work yay yay (: the rest of it shall not be continued :X

Seeing Zi Xiang again is so cool. Didn't know he still learns wushu! We've lost contact with so many pri school kids. Zhe Yan is so freaking emo emo emo. He painted his nails black ohmygoodness. I can't imagine myself doing that. Cos i kinda bite my nails hahahaha. the next thing you see my whole teeth black xD

Studying at the library with gab was good also. Managed to get in most of the F&B stuff. I shall continue with Econs & POM tomorrow >.>

Mummy's been good! She bought me a new handphone casing and new sexy white headphones! Although it looks kinda weird but it's the thought that counts :D

I really feel the sense of urgency in studying for this sem exam cos I really really want my scholarship! COME ON COME TO MEEEEEEEE.

Guiyao just showed me that he finished the whole crazy taxi missions with the screenshot. hahahahaha. I might ask Keith to go TP on thurs to mug (:

That's not my problem.

2008-08-11T01:34:00.003+08:00

haha today watched Money no Enough2!
I think it's kinda touching show. Those that have watched it, I think they should change the title to A Grandmother's Love. Sad show manzzz.

If i recall saturday we had this prayer walk for Singapore as a country at church. I was just wondering, cos some of the younger ones refuse to pray. If we don't pray, then what's the point. really. I think right now if i were to ask the youths at yf this question, the response wouldn't be surprising. "How many of you would really come to church if your friends don't show up?" It's not that I am trying to criticise anyone in particular but in our generation at tm, new leaders have to step up.

Anyway, things i plan to do over the sexy long holiday :

1. Play block catching
2. Go running along the roads at 3am in the morning
3. Get my ass off the couch at start jogging
4. Tell my grandma i love her
5. Buy a new watch, belt and shoes
6. Repair my sandals
7. Finally do a class blog
8. Attend class chalet :DDDD
9. Cut my hair?

wheeee. freee.

2008-08-02T21:51:00.002+08:00

i really hate it sometimes when people toy with you. Both guys and girls. Shucks man. Sickening.

Life isn't that stressed as 2 weeks ago. cos now there is only 1 project left and 1 presentation!
13 august seems so near (:

and right now i am listening to yingqi complain to me hahahaha.

Life's been alright. Yimin dancing at rapture was great. haha i had last minute tickets.
looks like he's gonna be real popular in school now!

Just finished washing the toilet. Heck it's really disgusting to pull out the hairs out of the drainage! I WAS LIKE TOTALLY FREAKED OUT. and those hairs couldn't have been mine cos mine isn't THAT long. and I doubt it's my dads. Leaving one person.

Dad's started work. He said it was really boring cos they were trying to set up his phone. Orientate him around the office. And he said there is gonna be another 3 days of orientation HAHAHA.

it's people like you make me what i am.

2008-07-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

hahaha something I collated for the 12 of us. Sorry Junshen, I didn't manage to find a photo of you sleeping :X

2008-07-25T22:40:00.002+08:00

yay my lappy is up and running again! thanks to norton anti-virus (:
sometimes it's the small things like that I'm thankful for hahaha.

On a happier note, F&B test yesterday was okay, I know i'm gonna pass but i doubt i would get an A cos like I so careless :X I need GPA of 3.5 per semester in order to get my scholarship! COME ON CLEMENT :D

My parents are out of town. Probably enjoying themselves in taipei now. Shopping, eating, walking they're past time favourites. Looks like I have to take care of the house now. Next man of the HOUSE HEEEE :D

Which is making me worried cos I don't see my sister at home right now and it's about 10.42pm. Not really safe for a girl to be wandering the streets at this time. Where could she be. My grandmother is like calling every hour to check on us since my parents aren't at home hahahaha.

yay 13 august seems so near! it's only like 2-3 weeks more.

This is getting out of hand manzzz.

2008-07-22T23:04:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since I posted.

I'm been pissed. Haiz projects, datelines, tests, exams, family. How to cope.

My dad flared up at the 3 of us today cos we didn't wash our dishes. So yeah. Scold here and there. I really wasn't in the mood. I was so tired, physically mentally, had projects to do, datelines to take into consideration and even study for a test on thursday, and yet got screamed at. I'm feeling very down. I'm already so stressed up at school, by the time i come home everyday it's about 10-11. After that I'll have to wash dishes, take out the thrash, lock up and do nothing cos the internet will be offed at 1130. Then I got no time to do projects. I'm screaming inside. I cried when I was in the shower just now. I so badly need some motivation or encouragement from my family but all I get is scoldings and reprimands. Even right now, the tears are dropping on to the floor. You know how it sucks when your days sucks, you stay back really late, you got things to do before the next morning, you're dead tired, your muscles are aching and when you come back, you get this. No internet, no games at all, no more freedom.

I'm gonna explode sometime soon man. I cannot take it any longer. I really can't. I'm been trying to control myself but then the limit has been broken.

They don't understand the pain and hardships I'm going through right now. Let's see I got test on thursday which i haven't even started studying for. Comm Skills test on sat. Intro test next tuesday. project dateline on 30th july. Econs dateline on 6th August. Commskills presentation on 13th august.

Look at this. I don't know how to heck am I gonna tide over this.

So much for family support.

2008-07-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

So here I am again.

I suddenly remembered some uncle telling me this a long long long time ago.

Life is a like a walk in the garden. When you first start out, you see the pretty flowers and you want to pick them. After picking them, you realise there is even more prettier flowers further down the walk. But since you never know how long is the walk, so don't be choosy.

Yeah how true it is man.

You know sometimes I'll always feel like I regret this decision and that decision. But come to think of it. Every decision has a good side and a bad one. This is inevitable to our life.

Last night I was watching this last episode of Korean drama. I nearly cried. A cancer is a kind disease? cos it gives you time to be with your family. Well I beg to differ, I'm the type that likes one shot things. Like one shot drink finish soy sauce bottle or chiong project finish overnight. In this case, I rather the disease be one shot and finish me off. Why dwell on this earth with such suffering unless I've unfinished business.

So guiyao keith and many more found out about my chest, you know my chest grows inward right? hahaha. okay if you do not know. Here's a newsflash.

You know every now and then I would look at other people, and really wonder why can't I be a normal person. Why do I have to be a skinny, pencil-like thing. Why can't I have a normal chest like others. Why can't I grow fat.

Well then I'm not worried at all even if I leave this world early, cos I know my God up there controls my life. I ain't a heck worried or doubt his decisions cos He is perfect. I ain't gonna be some depressed shit who lets a simple defiency drag my life down. Heck NO. Clement Chua isn't that weak man.

You guys might guess by now I've got quite alot of pride heh :D

I want to fall in love with you.

2008-07-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

another day has passed.

Shawn's birthday is tomorrow. Haven't decided what to give him :X

so yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWNNIEEEE :D
hahaha. good project mate but too bad he's attached if not he's the first on my gay-list.

bought a new thumbdrive, actually not new cos I was using my mum's one so yeah got my own. 2 GB for 20 bucks (: shiokkkkk.

One thing I would really wanna do now is to go back to Thailand. I miss the pace of life there ):

Projects are freaking killing. I can't take it. 6 August where the heck are you? I make sure i'll make you my fav day next year if you promise to come early (:
Boy i sound like some small childish kid.

I am so wanting to go town. So many things to buy, so little money and time.

You're not sorry at all.

2008-07-13T21:52:00.003+08:00

FINALLY. My dad has got a job. I jumped for joy when i heard this. It's been such a long and painful wait. God has perfect timing that he does. I am so thankful that the worriness of my dad not finding a job would be gone.

I haven't been so happy in such a long time (:

Stayed overnight at the airport to chiong projects. Didn't sleep at ALL. was really tired and slept from 8am to about 5.30pm. Yes you guys can say I'm a pig.

I'm gonna tell you that I love you in the best way that I can.

2008-07-09T23:33:00.001+08:00

Haha POM presentation on monday! ;D

Well I didn't know projects could get so out of hand ): so jialat until my group has to camp at the airport on friday night to chiong finish the rest of our projects.

Been neglected Him often cos of this hectic schedule, hope it gets better after all the bloody deadlines get met (:

Darling you will always be my baby.

2008-07-07T00:48:00.002+08:00

so yeah I've cut my hair. And i don't think the guy did a very good job.

I have to wait another few more months before my lovely hair grow back again ):

okay in another like 7 hours i gonna prepare for my first presentation in poly life! I am both excited and nervous cos i scared i screw up then drag my whole group down.

sometimes when you try and try and try again, it gets really depressing that you keep falling down and crashing to the floor. I'm tired of it. I can't understand this. People change I know, but you change faster then anyone i know of. Sometimes I really don't know whether I'm your friend or some stranger on the bus.

Sick and tired of this pit hole.

2008-07-03T23:25:00.003+08:00

There you have it! the photos for this week! (:

I will try to collate the indiv pics to a big picture! ( to the guys that went to watch GETSMART)

And i dream about you all the time.

2008-06-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

About time I updated.

Today when I was in the bus horrrr, I saw this 2 mute people beside me using sign language to talk. It just reminded me how fortunate I am to be able to talk. I feel so grateful to God at that moment lah. It's like I could be that person without the ability to talk. I can't imagine life without talking. Life would be so SILENT hahahahaha!

YAY today INTROH&T project finish! WHOOOOTS! Dang happy, but still got presentation. I don't mind presenting. Really :X

Then on wednesday my class gonna watch GetSmart! yay! I have a feeling this week would be good!

We sometimes take for granted small things in this world.

2008-06-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

Haiz i miss studying in st gabriel's ):

NEWSFLASH!
CLEMENT HAS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS LIFE TRIED TO EAT A CAESAR SALAD. He hates vegetables.

Shucks man I'm so proud of myself (:
These few days I am making an effort to include veg in my meals WHOOOO!

Mum asked me to cut hair. I don't care. Why these kinda things she also wanna care. Leave me alone. The decision to cut hair is my own.

According to Keith Jonathan Russell, the next school holidays are in 72 days time ):
but it would be 2 months this time. Then I planning to organise chalet!

I'll say I'm sorry.

2008-06-24T01:12:00.003+08:00

PROJECTS are killing me. Actually it's not the projects, it's their goodfriend the deadlines ): LOL keith says he can't wait for the next term break which is 2months in another 75 days! hahahaha. Maybe during the 2 month break we could have a class chalet! So fun but see whether the class wants or not. Please tag to show your approval :D thanks.

Weekend has been pretty boring ):
I wanna go shopping. Shucks i've got things to buy.

INK harvesack.
New belt.
New pair of jeans.
Buy a casing for my hp.
New watch.
New pair of shoes.

Oh great. I really have to turn to online shopping don't I? :X

Okay you losers out there who feel really down and disappointed, need advice?
Let me show you mine (:
Everything you do, there is ALWAYS a bad side.
Try to think of both before doing something (:

Nothing's gonna change.

2008-06-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

so yes the continuation :D

This trip was different cos:
1. I had to take up more responsibility unlike last time when i was the youngest.
2. We visited the MOC which during my previous trip i was helping to build it.
3. Some of the kids at the hostel left ): (Goh, Tip, Pan, Peter, Fone, many more.)
4. I had a swollen left foot.
5. God really showed me how pampered I am, and how comfortable i am with material possession.

There you have it (:

okay okay. Mob was very meaningful FULLSTOP. I am really touched to see people from other countries worshiping God everso faithful even when they aren't supposed to. I feel so fortunate to be in Singapore where there is a freedom for religion.

Some of the kids there are orphans too. Many of them have tragic backgrounds. I feel so sorry for them but i can't say i understand their situation cos I really ain't close to their situation at all. After about 11 days of eating rice + veg alone, i am recovering from culture shock here in Singapore of how much meat we eat hahahahaha. My leg is getting better hooray! My project is due on monday and I haven't even started yet. AHHHH RANDOM-NESS.

There is a reason.

2008-06-18T21:23:00.001+08:00

God has been good throughout the trip despite having this gigantic swell on my left leg.
Mob was tougher this year than my previous trip CAUSEEEE.

To be continued in my next post :X

She's so lovely.

2008-06-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

MOB TRIP 2008 :D

6 - 17 June (: I know it's hard to live without me around but sometimes we gotta do what we hate to do (:

BYEBYE NOOBS :D

Gone then, gone now.

2008-06-01T17:20:00.001+08:00

1 JUNE! hahaha okay hello you peeps :D I'll be leaving on friday early morning at like 7.40am to THAILAND! WHOOOO. don't ask me to buy stuff cos i think i have no time to buy things for myself D:

MOB TRIP WHOOO! PREASE come send me off :DDDDD

last chance for one last dance.

2008-05-24T23:19:00.001+08:00

Lol rita helping me to put on eilis!

Finally end product! GAY D:

I want to fall in love you in again.

2008-05-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

ARRRRGHHHH. projects are about to kill me )))): the last thing i do before i sleep is project, during my sleep i think about project, wake up first thing finish project. Tell me how additctive this project thing is.

June Holidays are approaching, which means that my mid-sem exams are coming. I have only 3 papers yay :D and my last paper is on the 5th! which means God allows me to go for MOB! YAYAYAYAYAYAYA. Mob will be so much fun as we minister to the kids and tell them how much God loves them. Actually i think they know this fact, but sometimes we all need alittle reminder (:

God i pray that you would mould me into the person you want me to be daily. I also pray that under your wings that i would never stray away from you again. Amen.

God is great.

2008-05-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

haven't updated in a while hmmmm.
weekend has been boring. No offence :X

You know me and amiel just came to realise something. When people say no offence then they purposely say something that obviously offends you. There isn't really much of a point saying No offence in the first place ._. It's like me saying to amiel. "No offence, but you're really ugly."
Obviously amiel's gonna feel pissed what. interesting fact hmmmmm.

Mob trip is drawing closer & closer! I'm feeling happy. yay. Another bad thing is that my exams are drawing close. I really need to start studying ): Like tomorrow i have a test about IntHT and i'm still cramming facts into my small head.

Goodbye World. The test awaits me tomorrow.

it's been a while since i saw your pretty face.

2008-05-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

So today i didn't go for RHT lecture. It's not that i'm a bad boy NO NO. It's just that i think it's very waste time when you can be at home just reading through the notes. So yeah i was at home. Then i tell you ah, i reached home i saw my gate wide open and some 2 strangers in my house. I thought they were thieves hahaha. then i went into my room where i couldn't find my lappy! I panicked. I really thought they were thieves hahaha! but i found it in my mum's room idk ._.

My porch is filled with boxes & boxes and medicine cos my dad is kinda helping mission clinic to deliver medical supplies to those people suffering in China due to the recent disaster. Very cool and my dad is kinda like the logistics manger :X

Then there was this group of unknown people that started coming into my front porch. But they were there to help us pack the things! You've no idea how much medicine we have here. I think it's enough to last my extended family and even my grandchildren till death!

My brother intro-ed a new game to me! it's called Wolf Team! hahaha damn spastic but it gives me cheap thrills ;D Tomorrow is CCN day in TP! LALA wants me to support her stall selling ice cream! I shall see (:

Live each day like it's your last.

2008-05-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

Come on Clement. You're tougher than this. you cannot give up hope now.
I haven't gone this far just to give up now. I CANNOT GIVE UP NOW.

So the report about my grandma's condition came back today. The surgeon said that her cancer is in the 3rd stage. (FYI 4th stage is the final stage.)
I had this dream that my grandma now is suffering cos of my mistakes that i keep repeating. I feel as though God is punishing me by taking away my grandma away. WHY OH WHY was i so stupid to give in to temptation. If i could, i would travel back in time to stop my mistakes so that my grandma wouldn't have to suffer so badly.

Life is so unpredictable. I bet if i were to die now, no one would really care except for my family. Everyone sees me as just the crazy retarded guy in church or school.

Random rant: today in the bus i saw this gay ITE guy. he was reading manga and this is the most disgusting part. HE KEPT DIGGING HIS NOSE. and started flicking the debris ALL OVER THE PLACE. BLOODY UNHYGIENIC can. nostrils so big and full of pimples still dig. hope his nose explode one day.

There are 2 types of people on this earth.
One who lets things be.
Another who fights till the very end.
Who are you?

2008-05-13T23:17:00.002+08:00

ohmy. School's becoming a bore real soon. THAT'S NOT GOOD! but at least i still got my friends around to get high with :D Class test starting this week and next week ): HOWHOWHOW! although i've studied but i'm still feeling very insecure. Don't know why.

A new chapter to my life and i like it (: it fills my life with colour finally. My class is thinking of wearing school uniform to school on friday during CCN. I'm like so paiseh if i wear uniform in can ._. i think i will like bring my PE shirt HAHAHA.

Mob trip is approaching real real soon. I'm actually looking forward to it :D YAY!

2008 has been a good year since this thing came along.
I would give up my laptop. I would give up my handphone. I would give up my ipod. I would give up all my savings. I'll do anything within my means if there was a way to prolong my grandma's life.

I'll never surrender.

2008-05-10T23:28:00.003+08:00

Today morning when i woke up i knew it was gonna be a bad day and it was. I received news at around 12.30pm from my dad saying that my grandmother had contracted cancer of the large intestine. When i heard this, My heart dropped. She is very dear to me. I love her very very much. Good things never seem to last. At the very least she is Christian.

I was getting very emo during Tm. I apologise. I was just reminiscing about the past. How sometimes i take my grandmother for granted. I really had no mood to do anything. Felt like shit and was still trying to smile.

I couldn't even eat during dinner. When we had gone to the hospital to visit her, she looked so frail. She had just come out of sugery. And everytime she breathed, it was so painful to watch her. I wanted to cry, it was really heartbreaking.

The doctor said that she has only 4-5 years left to live, who knows whether this could be decreased or not. I'm just praying, hoping that somehow God would intervene and make a miracle happen before my very eyes. As for me, i never thought cancer would be so near to me.

God answers prayer.

2008-05-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'm too tired to blog now.
BYEEEEEEZZZZ nooobbbbssss.

2008-05-09T00:06:00.002+08:00

Today has been a really retarded day.
F&B tutorial was fine, although i was REALLY sleepy but i still endured it ;D Then RHT lecture hor i tell you was like crapping time! keith guiyao jess me and claire were sitting at the back row of the lecture theatre then all the questions the lecturer ask them but not me!

Then me and guiyao started using jess' hands as paper. We were like drawing on it, ALL SORTS OF FUNNY SCRIBLINGS you can imagine yourself (: During the lecture hor, when i look at jess' hands i started to laugh. LIKE REALLY REALLY loud :X
I pity those people sitting infront of us.

Claire damn joker, she starting camwhoring then suddenly our whole row started! kaoz. like our attention spent is bloody short. The photos are on claire's blog, click the link if you really wanna see.

I've decided to give up rock climbing and join adventure club instead haha. I kinda weighed my chances of getting in to rock climbing and it was quite slim as i will be fighting against stronger guys and beefcakes. Anyways adventure club is really RETARDED. it's like just outings and outings like rock climbing, night-cycling, kayaking, running around reservoir!

I've learned the hard way.

2008-05-07T20:20:00.004+08:00

YAY now i am blogging with my new lappy! (:

so cool. i feel so grown up hahahaha.

OKAY TO ALL 09-ers!

here are the pics on the day of claire's birthday.

Claire.

Birthday girl!

Class picture!

Class picture 2!

Claire & Jessica

Guys: Keith, Guiyao, Clement, Junshen, Zhihong, Shawn. CLAIRE.

NICE SHOT (:

Birthday cake :D

sexy donuts.

LOL.

I see the broken world before me.

2008-05-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

YAY. i can't wait for school in less than 12 hours (: this is like one of my first times in my LIFETIME that i can't wait to go to school. i used to dread school. ACTUALLY we all go to school cos we can see our sexy friends right? hahahaha.

I need to put plasters on my leg. I injured my right knee and it's bleeding as we speak. I tasted blood many times and i did it in front of james and pong. They were DISGUSTED. I'm sure many of you would be disgusted too.

Heard from many people that Ironman is quite a good show. so far no i know said it was a lousy show. I wanna catch it (:

Please give my heart a break.